last night at 6pm, i bought 2 tickets to the U2 concert online. $70 total. totally worth every cent because during the concert i had an epiphany. i was standing up and dancing in place singing along to a great song when it hit me - my child has been alive for 11 weeks, and i've basically been a miserable human being during that time.
yeah, breastfeeding has been hard, but so what? that's what i have to complain about? i had a gorgeous, healthy child, the easiest childbirth recovery ever, lost my weight in no time at all, but all i'm fixated on is the breastfeeding... but no more! I'm so fortunate to have the best husband ever, a pretty cool child (from what i can tell at 11 weeks) and i'm happy and healthy. we both have great jobs, great families, great friends... i can't complain about anything - so from this point forward, i will stop.
and in the spirit of embracing my life, here are 5 things that i'm thankful for right now in this moment (Thanksgiving has come early this year folks!):
I am thankful for... (in no particular order)
5. a husband who wants to pick up and go to a U2 concert on a Tuesday night after work (I would never have done this without him)
4. for the best parents who at a moments notice will come over and babysit their granddaughter until 12am...
3. for my daughter... yesterday in my breast feeding support group, she was all smiles and was a little chatty cathy... it was awesome!
2. getting to spend time with 2 of my favorite people yesterday - one, over a 2-hr lunch, and the other, over a 1-hr phone call - good times...
1. for the 9 hours that my daughter slept last night... wow...
oh, and what was the song that caused this revelation you ask?
Stuck in a moment
"You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And now you can't get out of it
Don't say that later will be better
Now you're stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it"
so, next week, when i complain about something else, remind me of this post... :) thanks!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
The last few weeks...
What we've been up to...
Well, it's basically been focused on Jayna's weight. To catch you up, she hasn't been gaining weight... So, finally on 9/25 (weighing in at 8.8lbs), we met with an Occupational Therapist to do an evaluation on her sucking. Drumroll people... she's bad at it. Apparently her mouth muscles need some work, so we've been doing some exercises to strengthen them while supplementing with bottles. We noticed an immediate improvement as she's never been able to hold in a pacifier and can finally do it (small victories). And to think we just assumed that she didn't like them...
So, we did this plan (exercises, bottles, etc.) through the weekend and went to the pediatrician on Monday (9/28) and she weighed in at 9lbs!!! Yay weight gain!
2 month weigh in stats (these were done on 9/28, so 5 days late). She's 9lbs (10th percentile), is 22.5 inches tall (60th percentile) and has a huge head - can't remember how big, but it's 75th percentile... not sure what this means. and since she's so huge (9lbs), i no longer have to go in for weight checks!!!
She got 2 shots and frankly she was a champ. She screamed for about 3 seconds and then we fed her and she was fine. Completely fine. I did give her 1 dose of tylenol before the shot, but really I should have given it to Oliver who was more upset than she was. Come on people - it's a shot!
Here we are another week later and still trucking through breastfeeding. I'm still threatening to quit everyday, although it seems that my milk supply may quit on me first. I'm getting crazy clogs since we've been giving her bottles and am not really able to pump them out. On top of that, I think I've gotten thrush which is adding in shooting pains to the mix... Have I mentioned that I hate breastfeeding? My new goal is October 23rd - 3 months. And for all of you people judging me, I've done everything humanly possible to keep going at this... if you have any suggestions of how I can make this better, please let me know... Maybe I'll get some advice tomorrow in my breastfeeding support group. Yup, I go to one...
Well, it's basically been focused on Jayna's weight. To catch you up, she hasn't been gaining weight... So, finally on 9/25 (weighing in at 8.8lbs), we met with an Occupational Therapist to do an evaluation on her sucking. Drumroll people... she's bad at it. Apparently her mouth muscles need some work, so we've been doing some exercises to strengthen them while supplementing with bottles. We noticed an immediate improvement as she's never been able to hold in a pacifier and can finally do it (small victories). And to think we just assumed that she didn't like them...
So, we did this plan (exercises, bottles, etc.) through the weekend and went to the pediatrician on Monday (9/28) and she weighed in at 9lbs!!! Yay weight gain!
2 month weigh in stats (these were done on 9/28, so 5 days late). She's 9lbs (10th percentile), is 22.5 inches tall (60th percentile) and has a huge head - can't remember how big, but it's 75th percentile... not sure what this means. and since she's so huge (9lbs), i no longer have to go in for weight checks!!!
She got 2 shots and frankly she was a champ. She screamed for about 3 seconds and then we fed her and she was fine. Completely fine. I did give her 1 dose of tylenol before the shot, but really I should have given it to Oliver who was more upset than she was. Come on people - it's a shot!
Here we are another week later and still trucking through breastfeeding. I'm still threatening to quit everyday, although it seems that my milk supply may quit on me first. I'm getting crazy clogs since we've been giving her bottles and am not really able to pump them out. On top of that, I think I've gotten thrush which is adding in shooting pains to the mix... Have I mentioned that I hate breastfeeding? My new goal is October 23rd - 3 months. And for all of you people judging me, I've done everything humanly possible to keep going at this... if you have any suggestions of how I can make this better, please let me know... Maybe I'll get some advice tomorrow in my breastfeeding support group. Yup, I go to one...
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